15 days into the year

Two weigh ins down at weight watchers for the year down 4 pounds. Good start. Fourteen days no soda. Who would of ever thought? Soda. It has been my enemy for years. Sometimes the headaches are so bad I have to go to sleep. Logan told me he didn't think I could do it. Before he would of been right but now I can and am doing it. I also have been running 9 miles.. And add a mile each weekend. 9 miles 90 minutes. Wow 9 miles. The Disney race is coming up in 30 days I want to finish under 3 a real under 3 not 3 08. The 46 pounds down helps. I really wanted to be at 60 down by Disney but I wont make it.. As I loose weight I find myself changing. More willing to try things. It is a long journey. Phil told me he didn't think I would ever be under 200 there used to be a day when I would of agreed with him. Not anymore. I think I might be close by the end of the year. As a wise women once told me.. The time is going to go by anyway.. you might at well loose the weight.

I must want this

I must want to loose weight.. why else would I drag myself out to the gym at 10 p.m. at night to exercise when all I really want to do is sleep? Or relax? Or a million other things. I am not sure why its different this time? Why I do want this so bad? Why I couldn't or didnt do it before? But I am motivated. This is my year by the end of the year I really want to be down 50 more pounds. Only one pound of week. I want to be healthier and want to be under 200. When this started I would of never thought I would or could be under 200 pounds but it seems doable now. So I drag myself out to the gym like it or not.. Day after day after day ..