Race Ten

I completed my tenth half marathon. Those are words I never thought would come out of my mouth.. But I did.. It seemed only fitting I would do my tenth in St. Louis.. alone. I kept thinking it was my race to run.. I needed to do it alone. At the starting line I met a lady doing her first. I was excited to tell her it was my tenth. When it started I put my headphones on and was off. I felt good.. I paced that thing perfectly.. Mile nine by hour two I would make it under 3. I ran a lot.. through the brewery.. past Busch stadium... through Soulard by Harris Stowe. It was getting hot I was doing great. I could see the finish line in front of my down Market Street.. I was there.. I was going to hold ten fingers up at the finish line.. for the picture of course.. at Mile 13 .. I thought I was going down. My leg cramped up I had to stop. Completely stop right by Union Station.. I heard a man in the crowd saying.. no go a little bit more.. A lady said use your arms.. And I was done. A lady came in to help me stand up.. but in the end.. I finished 3:02 are you kidding me.. two minutes over 3 ... will I ever get to the 3. Anyway I was proud.. Ten half marathons.. I did it. I am proud of me. I felt good to finish it.. Alone. I am so much stronger mentally and physically than I was two years ago. The most interesting thing about this race is they had to close it due to weather at the end.. it was too hot.. After Disney I thought it was cool. It was my race to run.. I did it and I will get under three next time.. Race 11.. Nashville here I come in three weeks...

Disney Princess Half Marathon

This past week was the princess half marathon. I had been looking forward to this race for a long time. I had planned my outfit. I had bought a skirt ( me in a skirt) and a tiara. I was ready. I had talked Solomon into running it with me. We had to get up at 330. 3:30 a.m. we had to be in the lot of Epcot at 420 and in our corral at 5:00. We had to walk over a mile to the corrals. We used the porta potty and sat on the highway ready to start. I was so excited. It was great to see the costumes and all the non traditional runners. We were in corral E so we had to wait. It didn't seem very long at all. WE saw the fireworks and we were off. We had a great pace and everything felt good. I was a little disappointed how crowded it was. We could not get any space or open. We ran into the magic kingdom. There were so many characters and things to see. We ran into the magic kingdom and saw Phil and the boys that was so great. Then we went to the castle. Their were trumpet guys playing. It was MAGICAL. It was also crowded and HOT. After the magic kingdom it was hot.. I was sweating like crazy. We ran till mile ten then I had a huge muscle cramp in my leg. I could not get it out. I tried to walk / run anything.. I was done. We walked in the last three miles and finished at 3:04 not at our goal but we finished. I would love love love to do it again. It was amazing. I still cant believe it is over. I loved every minute of it.

Why not?

To the guy at the gym who ran beside me today.. and pushed me on. After all did I really want to let you see how tired I was. Thanks for commenting how great I was doing after you left and I was still running. 12 miles. 12 miles two hours and 15 minutes I swear not very long ago I was walking three miles an hour trying to get to four miles an hour. People ask me strange questions. Somebody asked me if it was hard for me to loose weight. Do you really get to be over 300 pounds and not find it hard to loose weight? I wanted to laugh. I also wanted to say I fight to loose every single pound. I have to watch what I eat daily and work out like crazy. I am almost out of the 260's. Then I can say I weigh 250. It's the little things to me. I feel good. Stronger. Someone also asked me how I mentally kept running for two hours. What makes me keep on. I thought about this a lot today while running. Then I thought why can't I . Running is so mental. You want to stop because it is boring yet I know I needed to get a long run in today. So I kept on. I guess I am tired of the excuses. SO my answer would be why not?

15 days into the year

Two weigh ins down at weight watchers for the year down 4 pounds. Good start. Fourteen days no soda. Who would of ever thought? Soda. It has been my enemy for years. Sometimes the headaches are so bad I have to go to sleep. Logan told me he didn't think I could do it. Before he would of been right but now I can and am doing it. I also have been running 9 miles.. And add a mile each weekend. 9 miles 90 minutes. Wow 9 miles. The Disney race is coming up in 30 days I want to finish under 3 a real under 3 not 3 08. The 46 pounds down helps. I really wanted to be at 60 down by Disney but I wont make it.. As I loose weight I find myself changing. More willing to try things. It is a long journey. Phil told me he didn't think I would ever be under 200 there used to be a day when I would of agreed with him. Not anymore. I think I might be close by the end of the year. As a wise women once told me.. The time is going to go by anyway.. you might at well loose the weight.

I must want this

I must want to loose weight.. why else would I drag myself out to the gym at 10 p.m. at night to exercise when all I really want to do is sleep? Or relax? Or a million other things. I am not sure why its different this time? Why I do want this so bad? Why I couldn't or didnt do it before? But I am motivated. This is my year by the end of the year I really want to be down 50 more pounds. Only one pound of week. I want to be healthier and want to be under 200. When this started I would of never thought I would or could be under 200 pounds but it seems doable now. So I drag myself out to the gym like it or not.. Day after day after day ..

Forty Four pounds down

Today I am forty four pounds down. Almost out of the 260's I am not ashamed to say that. It is who/what I am. Its slow but it is coming off. At the beginning of the year I would of never guessed I would have lost almost fifty pounds. It seems hard to believe. I hope I can loose fifty pounds next year. That would be amazing. I am torn right now between committing to a full marathon or a triathalon sprint. I wonder if I could do one of those. Commit.. Train push myself. I am thinking of committing. What a goal for 2011. I would of never thought I would be able to run and I did a 5k or loose fifty pounds. No excuses. What was I waiting for?

What kind of Person?

What kind of person gets up at 7:45 a.m. and exercises on a Saturday? When its cold outside? Today when I was running into the gym I heard someone ask that .. I looked it was my cousin talking to me. The answer is.. ME. I have become that kind of person. I want to go to spinning class at 8:15. I actually enjoy it. I have realized some things about me I never realized before. I can do things. As the weight comes off I see glimpes of the girl who has been here hiding under all this fat all along. I am not afraid to try new things. I can do it. I started a kettleball class this week. Hey why not? I am excited for the change. I like who I am now. I always liked myself but now I am proud of me. This is something I did for me. And its hard. Its hard everyday to make the decision to do it. I have to do it every day. I told Phil this week when I was coming home from the gym. I guess this is going to be my life working out every day... He said yes it is. You have made a lifestyle change. ITs not a diet it is a way of life. I am becoming the person I am proud to be.